I'll wait.

I was on one of those online social sites and a  guy asked me: "So what are u looking for".  
I replied : 

"Friendship, someone to hangout with and do things. Like movie night, maybe out to see 50 Shades Darker or  John Wick 2; or stay in with a Red box at home by fireplace with drinks. A gym buddy or someone to go on long walks around the park or beach in the evening. I am looking for that guy I can cuddle up with on the couch and read a book, where silence is okay and we can just be together. I want a guy that has a full time job, his own transportation and his own place. I want a guy that is between 30 and 40 and not married. Yes, I know this is a lot to ask, but I am worth it."

Darn right,  I am worth it. God is showing me my worth, not in the world, but my worth in Him.  I struggle with fear of abandonment and trust, God loves me in the places, so I know how to love others.  He is showing me I am the daughter of the King.  This does not mean things will be easy and free ride.  This means no matter what, He will be by my side; my strength, my Rock, the Savior, my King.  


Heard this for the first time Valentine's Day, loved it:  Party like a Princess.

   

 

I feel so vulnerable for looking so forward to seeing you.

Lonely

There is a guy that I am way beyond interested in getting to know. I heard him say he was lonely. I though to myself. He is lonely, I am lonely, why cant we be lonely together?( I'm sure that has to be lyrics to a song).  I actually looked up and asked God too.  I don't have the confidence to act on it, so will not likely happen.  It might be good, right now I am feeling fearful and inadequate.  I don't want to mess it up with him or run him away.  I made a mistake this week, I have since corrected it and every thing is fine. It was a human mistake  that I am sure I am not the only one to make.  This still does not keep me from feeling embarrassed and beating myself up about it.  I try to learn something or take something good away from every situation. My God never fails me, I have learned in this circumstance  also.  Now I can go back to living like I am loved, because His love has made me more than enough. . .

Fearlessly loved

There's not a craving of the mind
   Which Jesus cannot fill.
There's not a pleasure I would seek
   Aside from His dear will.
From hour to hour He fills my soul
   With peace and perfect love;
While rich supplies for ev'ry need
   He sendeth from above.

The joys which this vain world bestow
   Have lost their charm for me.
Once I enjoyed its trifles too,
   But Jesus set me free.
Its joys will perish in a day,
   Its pleasure quickly fly;
Its mirth like mist will pass away,
   And all its honors die.

He stilled the angry tempest's power,
   Which raged within my heart;
And bade each sinful passion there
   To speedily depart.
Yes, Jesus is my All in All,
   He satisfies my soul,
For me He died on Calvary,
   And now He makes me whole.

Yes, Jesus is my Lord alone,
   My Rock, my Strength, my Song,
My Wisdom and my Refuge safe;
   To Jesus I belong.
He is my Advocate with God,
   My Way, my Life, my Light,
My Great Physician and my Friend,
   My Guide by day and night.