Goliath

In my day to day life I have to break news to people which they do not want to hear.  When they have a hard time accepting this, I explain "There are aspects outside of our control. . . ".  Today I found myself faced with these same words. I find myself faced with a situation outside of my control, and I don't want to accept it. I have not always been as spiritual as I am now, this has been a long journey and a evolving relationship with God. There have been times when I felt God had turned his back on me and times when I have felt disconnected. In hind sight, I realized now it was me who turned my back on Him.  There is a guy. I wanted so badly to get to know him and see where this journey called life could take us.  My type A personality wanted to make this happen.  I tried not to get ahead of myself and force things, by letting them take their natural course.  You see I know all to well what it is like to love someone that has an addiction to sex, alcohol, drugs, food, relationships, you name it. I was married for five years and spent the entire five years praying and trying to change another person.  I was young, I thought I would be able to change him. Nothing worked, I succeeded in learning some very important lessons.  Primarily, I learned you can't change people, and you can't take it personal when they are not ready to face those demons.  Yes, they are demons. It takes a strong resolve to wrestle and stay the fight to overcome.  If I had not been raised to know that God is my rock, my resolve, I would not be able to say where I would have ended up.






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. . . and will always be praying for you.