This week theme keeps swirling around the the idea that I need to open up and make more friends. My Pastor kicked it off by going back and reminding me of our church's core values: Connect. Grow. Serve. I have grown immensely, and I serve. I will admit:When it comes to the connect part-there is a major disconnect when it comes to me. My uncle then tells me I need to be more friendly and open. The message on his church bulletin this Sunday was Ecclesiastes: 4:9-12 The Value of a friend. He reminded me that I need to let God's light shine through me.
It used to perplex me whenever I heard it mentioned: No man is an island. I get it now. I need to do something to change and to try to be more open and available. Deep sigh. For this, I will need to go to my Savior.
I seem to have taken my eyes off my Savior. Though it may seem like briefly, it's enough time for things to feel as though they are falling apart. Or so the enemy will have me believe.
The plans I had for the Danial Plan study has not gone quite the way I had anticipated. Originally, I wanted a support group for other dealing with overeating. I wanted to have friends to call when I was stressed about life and standing on the ledge of Death by Chocolate (Fudge brownie wedge between two layers of chocolate cake, held together by fudge icing). I wanted someone to talk to that understood and could understand the struggle I face daily. I wanted to tell others of my struggle and how I thought I would never get to where I am now-but I continued.
A friend of mine wanted to go to the beach baptism my church is holding, so we are making a day of it. I am excited about the beach day. I am starting to second guess the new bathing suit, though. I don't feel comfortable where I am at this time on my journey. I know I am not going to be comfortable if I wear it. This is a day I am blessed to get to spend at the beach with friends and family. I want to be comfortable and enjoy the day. I am considering giving the bathing suit to my daughter so she has one for the summer and just being comfortable.
I get the feeling Catch would not be looking for the same type of friendship l am seeking. I have not gotten any indication Catch even wants a friend, in the sense that I am meaning. When I say friend, I mean one like Ecclesiastes 4:9-12, a friend to watch the fireworks with this year on the 4th of July . A friend to go to the gym and work out from time to time This has been my trepidation. I have made it a habit of playing it safe and being cautious. I do not think Catch wants the same.
What happened to dating, or getting to know another person . spending time enjoying one another' s company? This concept seems to have become extinct with the dinosaurs.
My eyes were off of my Savior. Though, it may have been for only a brief moment. I was distracted long enough. I must now re- focus and look to Jesus; you can find me at the feet of my Savior.
I love the messages on church billboards, I think of them as little messages from God. ( He will use any means possible to speak to us) This week, there was one that said: A church is a gift from God, assembly required. How appropriate for where I am in my walk right now.
If you see me at they gym, this is the song playing through my earbuds:
Love this song.
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