Mother's Day

There is no better feeling than being in the arms of your Savior.  This is how I have felt lately.  Its as though all this time I have been trying to fill the emptiness in my heart with everything possible. In my case its food.  Most people try and fill the hole in their heart, in their life with the things we become slaves to: food, sex, alcohol, anything that will numb the pain.  What we are looking to replace is the love our Savior-which isn't possible.
My Father is working on me.  Yes, I am for sure a work in progress. I try and stay in His word to build our relationship,

My journey has been long in my goal to lose weight.  I have talked about food and eating healthy. I have talked about my many trips to the gym.  I have always felt the underlying issue needs to be reviewed also.  The entire reason I started this blog was to journal my journey and to come up with some sort of group support.  Well, I am happy to announce I finally got up the courage and have posed a bible study or over eaters support group to my church.  It was received well.  I posed it to our women's ministry leader and she is posing starting "The Daniel Plan" bible study.  Its not exactly an over eaters support group as I had envisioned-however, it's a start. When I look back on where this journey has started and where I am now.  I cant help but look to my Lord Jesus and smile.  Thank you.


My Mother's day was really good.  I went and visited my mother's grave-which was hard.  It also helped remember to continue to work toward progress.  

I remember where I have come from, where this journey has brought me from:

It is always nice to reflect on the journey.  This also gives me motivation to continue forward. 

My daughter usually spends the summer with her father.  I am leery of letting her go.  You see my ex-husband/ her father, does not eat what we eat.  He doesn't stay behind her about getting physical activity each day, and she ends up gaining weight. It would be nice if I could get get her into a summer camp that would keep her active during the day.  When I was younger it was NYSP: ( National Youth Sports Program).  We would do sports all day during the summer.  A summer program that does skating one day, swimming another day, field sports.  This would be something great for fitness and training clubs to start.  Kicked off by a summer BBQ.  I love BBQs and potlucks-they are just so family and homey. 

I had really been motivated to stay discipline for this last month.  My church holds a Beach baptism every year at St. George island.  I was looking forward because this is how I have been gauging my weight loss. I bought a two-piece bathing suit.  I said two piece-not bikini.  Every couple of weeks I would try it on to see if it fit any better.  I found out last week this year the baptism was going to be on June 6.  I was stoked and pumped things into high gear. My bubble was later burst when by daughter who was baptized at  last year Beach baptism, said she didn't want to go.  

I  have been going to my church  for over a decade and could not think of any place else to call home. There is a guy in church that has peaked my interest. I have a horrible track record with relationships.   It is going to take  a real man of God with some patience to get through to my heart. I don't want to possibly mess up being able to call my church home.  My church is where I lay at the feet of my Savior.   It is where I have laughed; where I have cried. I would be so lost. Calvary is where I take refuge from the world. I will keep praying about it. 

Catch was at the gym today.  He is wearing this new sexy vibrant blue.  Lord, I saw him on the pull up bar,  I am just going to tell you guys-anything on the pull up  bar is sexy. 

Well, I get I will set my goal on being two-piece bathing suit ready for the trip to NY at the end of the summer 8/8/2015.