Well, I don't even know where to start. I will say it felt good when I found this blog again. I had really thought that it was gone and I was never going to be able to access it again. However, I am here!
When I tell you there has been so much of a change and as I am getting things out, there are changes in the works. I really don't know where to start. One thing that is the same is Jesus is still on the throne and the center of my life. Now a days I talk to him a lot more because I feel he is the only one I can talk to about anything. He wont judge me and He always understands.
I don't know how the last quarter of 2020 is going to go, I am glad to have made it through. How will 2020 Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas look? How will 4th quarter sales look with so much of the country out of work? Definitely something for the record books. I will start when things started to really change. So at the end of 2019 I started in a new position at work. It was rocky at first and took about three months for me to get acclimated. I was beginning to doubt myself; but another shift happened and there were some abrupt changes, which I didn't see coming. Then Covid19 happened and I learned and adapted to things a lot faster than I normally have when it comes to change. I like the work I am doing now and I am more confident due to working with a limited staff. Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining. It helps me focus and work better with fewer people. You see, I am a very private person, working with fewer people allows me to work on the task at hand rather than having to divide my time between interpersonal work relationships. I still work on a team so i am still developing this skills set.
I am working on strengthening my fiances so I can eventually purchase a house. For years I didn't want to purchase a home, but I have had enough of "city living". I really want a country home. One thing at a time. Not sure if it is because I am getting older or my patience has just been running thin. I am just so incredibly annoyed by certain things: rental agent not responding to work order repairs in a timely manner, other renters being loud and boisterous, parking, and lack of privacy, just to name few.
I got my passport in the last quarter of 2019 with the intent to visit some countries I had dreamed about, but then the pandemic started and my travel dreams got grounded for at least a year. Maybe once all this is really over I can visit New York again like I planned and other places like Colombia and Spain. This will have to go on the back burner for now.
I never thought this is what 2020 would be like, growing up. When I was in middle and high school, I used to think to myself I wonder what it would be like in the year 2020. This thought was often prompted by the television show 20/20. I am certainly grateful for the advancement in technology. The ability to order groceries online and have them delivered through apps like Instacart is a nice feature. I really like that you can order groceries from wholesale stores such as Sam's Club (without a membership) or alcohol from ABC liquor delivered. Dating online is still a nightmare, I just saw on Court TV the other day that a lady was killed by a guy she met up with from online. I am also excited about being able to vote by mail and track my ballot to make sure it made it to be counted. I would have never thought there would be shows like: 90 day Fiance, Love After Lock Up or Bridezillas.
I am still struggling with my weight and self image. I have entertained the thought of Bariatric surgery or what I like to call "slim jim" surgery. I have researched the sleeve vs. bypass, but the thought of surgery feels like a bit much at times.
Well, this is a good bit to post for the first time back.
