In this season.

It is funny how strange and  peculiar this journey we call life.  Today we just finished a three week serious on when we feel God is not mindful of our situation, our circumstances.  The series was about those times when you feel like to you are trying your hardest to do His will and do what is right. However, things are not going the way you want.  For example, haven't been cured of an ailment, haven' gotten the promotion you needed,  have found that person for you. You see your friends, fellow sisters and brothers in Christ, even atheist or non believers happy and prosperous.  This where I was, I ask God sometimes if He will meet me where I am.  Because John the Baptist wasn't fit to tie his shoe laces.  I am beneath him.  This came at the right time, Now, the radio is launching World Biggest small group.  The title  aptly suited for this season: Beyond the Suffering. This is starting as we change into fall.
There was a couple of things that bothered me this week.  The first was on road.  I going to say something that bothered me, then I am going to say something I like.  It irks me to no end for someone to change lanes while crossing an intersection. It is also against the law.  One thing I like about my city, are the round-abouts. They are like a little traffic dance, that everyone must actively participate. If everyone pays attention, we can all continue on our way without having to  stop.  They are neat, my brain likes them.
Another issue I have is "unaware competition".  I don't compete.  Some don't mind being in competition with their friends, this actually drives them; on the other hand,I  do not.  Competition to me requires a comparison.  I am unlike anyone else, no one else has lived the life I have lived, nor I theirs.  The only thing I am after is the love of God, and He has more than enough of this to go around. Not sure of anyone else, but there are times when I feel as though I am in a competition, but I am unaware. I don't want to compete, I want to follow the will God has for my life.  It is not always easy.  I make mistakes, I fail, I hurt, I cry, I laugh, I love and  I keep on moving. There is not an option for me to quit or give up.

Today I watched a movie, one of of the characters mention that feel when you feel disconnected,  You have prayed, and prayed and you have listened, but you hear from God.  That feel when He feels out of reach, when He is out of the office handling some major crisis. He isn't though.  He is  right there with me,

I need him more than I know. . .